I have realized I have not talked about this much or even at all.
Let me start with how much I have enjoyed it, of course the first couple months were difficult just trying to figure out what to do, but once we both got the hang of it, I loved having those moments with her.
Then when I had to go back to work; I was able to pump three times a day, which produced enough for Bo to have the next day while my mom watched her.
Summer vacation hit and no more pumping, and a lot more quality time with Bo and I.
Then back to work, and Bo started eating solids.
This school has been so hard to pump at work, I just didn't have a consistent time everyday pump, so when I did I didn't produce a lot. I think it had more to do with the fact that I was so stressed on trying to get it out in a short amount of time, then people would be calling or knocking on my door which just stressed me out more.
So after a nice talk with my sister-in-law and her telling me that I need to do what is best for me, and that it was ok stop pumping at work and just feed her in the morning and at night. I have been so much happier and less stressed. It has also been so much more enjoyable to breast feed too.
However, last week I was crazy busy at work and worked way more hours then I normally do, which set my feeding times off, and I have started o produce less. I am going to continue to feed her as long as I can, but I think our breastfeeding bonding time is coming to an end quicker then I wanted to.
I have learned so much from this time around I think I will be doing things a little different the next time around.